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Stephen Fry tried to commit suicide last year, he has revealed.
He said: ‘It was a close-run thing. I took a huge number of pills and a huge amount of vodka. The mixture of them made my body convulse so much that I broke four ribs – but I was still unconscious.
‘Fortunately the producer – I was filming at the time – came into the hotel room and I was found in an unconscious state and taken back and looked after.
Of his decision to speak out, he said: ‘This is the first time I’ve said this in public, but I thought I might as well. I’m president of Mind and the whole point of my role, as I see it, is not to be shy about the morbidity and the genuine likelihood of death among people with certain mood disorders if they don’t look after it. If they think they can do without the medication, the regular visits to the doctor, or if they without taking care of themselves.
‘I’ve made this boringly clear in television programmes and other things, so I won’t wank on about it. But I am the victim of my own moods, more than most people are perhaps; in as much as I have a condition that requires me to take medication so that I don’t get either too hyper or too depressed to the point of suicide. I’ll go as far as to tell you I attempted it last year, so I’m not always happy.’
He said he felt unable to talk to friends about his condition, likening it to having an unsightly genital wart that you would only want professional medical consultants to see.
‘All my friends and family, when they eventually heard about it [the suicide attempt], came to visit me in hospital all said, “Well, why didn’t you call?”
‘I like to think that if I had children I would think harder about doing it, but I know people who have had children who have done it.
He explained: ‘If unmedicated there are times when I am so exuberant, so hyper, that I can go three or four nights without sleep and I’m writing and I’m doing stuff and I’m so grandiose and I’m so full of self-belief it’s almost impossible to deal with me. I can’t stop speaking. I go on shopping sprees. One of the common signs of mania, or hypermania, is sexual exhibitionism – fortunately I don’t have that.
‘When I’m conscious, when I’m rational, I realise that being Stephen Fry is a very happy thing to be; people are extraordinarily nice to me. Mostly it’s great, but there are times when you’re on stage or when I’m doing QI and laughing [on the outside], but inside I’m going “I want to fucking die.”’
I’m watching a video on Bipolar Disorder
My husband: “Oh, so Stephen Fry attempted suicide last year”
Me: “That’s the thing about being a spokesperson for mental illness; you seem happy when you’re doing the advocating, and you wait until a while after it’s bad to tell anyone.”
Husband is amazed that I already knew the contents of the article
Just because someone is laughing and smiling/happy on the outside does NOT mean they’re alright inside.
“this leaves men confused and unable to pigeonhole you. What they are forced to do instead is… take you seriously.”
“ You see, family is very important to me. There’s nothing i wouldn’t do.”
- Walter Bishop
I want to be him when I grow up.
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